Day 0217

Stressed, bored, depressed, dissatisfied, lonely. Came very close to booking a flight tomorrow to change my environment and be on the road again (i.e. run away), but left it too late and gave up. Came very, very close to quitting this project, but finally pulled myself together after midnight to work on the drawing.

Really wasting my time, and I'm not even enjoying it. Want to go and be thoroughly, desperately debauched. Have no edge, but feel like I'm on the edge. Fuzzy head, pacing, can't concentrate or commit.

Ticking away the moments that make up a dull day
You fritter and waste the hours in an offhand way.
Kicking around on a piece of ground in your home town
Waiting for someone or something to show you the way.

Tired of lying in the sunshine staying home to watch the rain.
You are young and life is long and there is time to kill today.
And then one day you find ten years have got behind you.
No one told you when to run, you missed the starting gun. Pink Floyd - Time