Day 0240

Rainy day in Budapest, confined to eateries and the apartment. Finished A Sentimental Education. Deeply enjoyed it. Deification of the adored object, casual, complete disregard for other loves which are either distractions or echoes of the real thing. The fatal attraction of the unattainable. Implicit assumption of the necessity of mistresses. Collateral of the incidental loves destroyed by the self-obsessed young man. I want more, I love seeing my own despicable nature reflected back at me.