Day 0266

Sister drove us across country to see Auntie Mary, who at 100 years old still waves goodbye from her house with her silk scarf, is known by name at the restaurant and takes herself into town daily for a coffee. Tenacity, grit, will. So privileged to have such a role model in my life, and to have the benefit of so many year's of knowledge and experience to learn from. What is it we remember? Can't remember the name of where she went on honeymoon or what she wore for her wedding, but can sing the songs her husband sang when they danced together. Misses her mother, her family.

I fell down the stairs when we got home and hurt my back. Instantly catastrophised the situation (thinking about hospital, internal bleeding and other characteristically neurotic things)!and had to work to consciously calm myself down and not have a panic attack. Need to train myself to not be such a coward. Grateful that the stoics and Montaigne came immediately and unbidden to my aid but I don't know how effective they will be to me in an actual accident or where blood is involved.