Day 0279

Beautiful walk in the sun, huge massed clouds, ploughed fields, red and black berries in the hedgerows. Still the agony of dog walkers, familiar cars and house windows shattering my illusion of isolation.

I never stick to my conclusions, and waste significant amounts of time going over the same problems multiple times. I have categorically decided several times before that I need a good job and stacks of cash, but I still haven't done anything about it and keep arriving afresh at the idea, then backing away from it. It's because I know the reality will involve arduous and difficult work, and I'm fundamentally lazy, short-sighted and comfortable.