Day 0346

Finished watching Waiting for Godot on YouTube, a play I often think about. Particularly during these endless grey, confusing, inscrutable days.

Resolved to rent an apartment and get a job. Applied haphazardly and desperately for some dry drudgery. Squandered time.

Never allow yourself to stand still long enough to see your own insignificance nor the irrelevance of your hopes and dreams! Immerse! Don't drift loose, entangle yourself with pressures and responsibilities and demands!

Having a child is a muderous act, condemning a life to death. And yet no one will seriously countenance such a thought; it goes against society, nature, custom. But it's true! Incommunicability of an idea that no-one wants to hear. The evolutionary advantage towards not comprehending the bleakness of the human condition.

Have you not done tormenting me with your accursed time! It's abominable! When! When! One day, is that not enough for you, one day he went dumb, one day I went blind, one day we'll go deaf, one day we were born, one day we shall die, the same day, the same second, is that not enough for you? They give birth astride of a grave, the light gleams an instant, then it's night once more.Samuel Beckett - Waiting for Godot